Am I sorry? Or should I be sorry? I don’t know. I don’t believe so. I don’t know what I believe. I don’t know what to believe. I hate you. Because you’ve hurt me. Very much. And it hurts. My soul hurts. Again. Everything is in vain. Though I did everything right this time. Or probably I didn’t. Although I believed so. Whatever. That’s how it goes. One more slap in the face. From you? From life? I am disappointed. I am so disappointed in you. In all of you. I am tired of this. I don’t want to feel the pain. Again. The soul is so fragile. You are responsible for it, once you’ve tamed it. I’m sorry you’ve forgotten this. Maybe, you never even knew it. This is my fault. I have misjudged you. Again.

This series is a photo therapy project. The pictures, just like the accompanying confession, are kind of a conversation with my ex(es), with all the men in my life. They are also like a conversation with myself. It is a synthesis: the “letter” you’ve never sent, or the words you weren’t able to say out loud when you were should have done so. It is a closure. At the same time, it is also an open door to my feelings, to my thoughts regarding my past relationships. (Zsuzsa Darab)

Born in Miskolc in 1989, Zsuzsa Darab graduated from the Moholy-Nagy University of Art and Design Budapest (MOME), in photography BA. In 2012, she obtained a scholarship to study painting and fine art in Denmark. In 2014, she studied at Aalto University School of Arts, Design and Architecture in Finland under the ERASMUS programme. In 2015, she graduated from MOME, in photography MA. Recently, she finished her study in design and visual art teacher MA programme at MOME, Budapest. In 2016, she did her photography internship in Reykjavik, Iceland, where she was working as Jón Páll’s photo assistant till 2018. At the moment, she lives and works in Budapest.

She has been a member of the Hungarian Assocation Of Young Art Photographers since 2011, and the Women Photograph database, since 2017.

Her works are usually personal, conceptual, staged and also experimental. She has already exhibited several times in Budapest and abroad as well, e.g. New York, Rome, Nizhny Tagil, Vienna, Helsinki, Istanbul, Warsaw and Greenville. In 2013, she participated in the Present Continuous art project at the Mai Manó House. In 2016, she was chosen by Photo Botie as one of the 30 under 30 women photographers.